hrum

This kinda thing... doesn't seem to be working. Messing around and stuff while new and what not... isn't doing it for me.

I don't feel self loathing (which is surprising) but maybe something less... than that.

Regardless in the end I feel like I'm missing out on something. And this does not help me out during the day when I want to...

- tell people to shut up in the lecture

- avoid talking to people because they're just happy and feed off each other

- get myself motivated to push myself in gym

- try and actually pay attention and learn stuff during class (this is new... seems like this semester's been pretty shit for learning)

Interesting... I guess it's still not too late to try lift my game.

- Unigames try outs soon

- We won our first vball game last week !

lololol

I don't want to go looking this way. 

Holy fuck what am I listening to?!?!

Some additional notes...

1. No one actually gives a fuck what you're doing

2. No one actually gives a fuck what you're listening to
3. No one actually gives a fuck about what you like
4. When someone asks 'How are you?' they don't actually give a fuck, but rather want to ask you for something else later.